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15 January 2007 @ 06:14 pm
*blah, ick, irk, gah*

Omg, this is the worst cold I've had in about two years. I get the sniffles a lot, but I don't usually get the 'OHMYGODI'MGONNABARF!' and the 'OHMYGODI'MSOFREAKIN'DIZZYICANTSTAND!!!' *AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!*, very often. I have them this time tho.
I actually played it smart and didnt go into work today because I figured if any of my co-workers got this, they'd kick my lily-white ass :). Feeling much better tonight tho, after three days of complete bed rest - ewww I really want to wash my sheets. I hate 'sick person smell' on my sheets.
23 November 2006 @ 08:16 pm
Happy Thanksgiving to my American LJ friends! :)

(We Canucks celebrated a while ago)
20 November 2006 @ 01:27 pm
I'm finally starting to feel better. Its been about two weeks since my girlfriend broke up with me.

Sure I still really miss her, but I no longer feel that my world is going to end. I have the best friends in the world! :) They have been so damn supportive, and have listened to my whining and moaning and groaning with no complaints (to my face anyways :p). And they've offered the regular self-esteem boosting cliche's - which ironically do help a whole lot. Thanks guys. Love you!

I think the drugs are helping a bit too (anti - depressants rock!!!). It almost feels weird to be getting back to my old energy level. I'm getting excited about going back to the gym (can anybody say 'hello hot soft butch body?!?!) and getting up in the morning doesnt feel like such an effort or a dead end. I actually find the sunshine happy instead of harsh and invasive. I can smile now and mean it. I cleaned the fuck out of the townhouse the other day. I even got down on my hands and knees to wash floors. It FELT SO GOOD!! lol.

So now I'm getting ready to go over to Shoppers DrugMart to print off some pix from Joe's 40th b-day bash that I went to in Toronto this weekend. So much fun!
15 November 2006 @ 09:55 am
I'm so excited! Ember is coming back to the Toronto area on Novemeber 22. I'm there! Anybody else in the GTA going?
09 November 2006 @ 02:44 pm
Yay! Found something to make me smile :)

my pet!
09 November 2006 @ 12:15 am
What do you do when the person that you thought you were going to spend the rest of your life with thinks that maybe you'd be better as friends?
08 November 2006 @ 04:55 pm
I spend a lot of my time just staring now. My eyes will find a neutral spot on my wall, one that doesnt have any reminder of us, and I'll stare. I don't realize that I'm crying until I've been doing it for ten minutes sometimes.

I'm not really quite sure what I'm thinking about or if I'm just letting myself feel the hurt. I think that I'm still surprised by the physical pain I feel. My head hurts so much. I'm pretty sure thats because I ruptured something from crying so hard Sunday night and all day Monday. Right now Tylenol is my friend.

My real friends are being so great to me right now. I could'nt ask for more supportive people in my life. Well, I could. It'd be just one person. The one that I usually turn to but can't right now.

I so badly want to pour my heart out to her, but I also want to give her her space. I know that this wasnt the easiest thing for her to do. I just really wished that there was a chance that we could be together again as 'Deirdre and Becky'. Now it won't be talking about a couple when our names are together. We'll just be friends. That kills me.

I just really want to curl up in a hole in the ground and have someone shovel dirt over me. I just feel so lost. I really dont want anyone else. I want my D. Plain and simple.
07 November 2006 @ 11:59 pm
She told me Sunday night when she got here. After I'd spent the day with her mother ( I love her mother, she's one of the sweetest and interesting individuals I've ever met). Even knowing what I  know  now, I'd still go about my day the same  way that I did. I'll take those last few moments of complete happiness and love and hold them tightly for a long time.

"I think the best thing for us would be.....
07 November 2006 @ 03:06 am
Shades of Blue

Emotion:: listlesslistless
Aural Stimilation:: Shades of Blue - Nick Lachey
07 November 2006 @ 02:33 am
found something that even tylenol three's dont help ease the pain of.

2am. less then four hours sleep in the last twenty-four. let's hope that the two sleeping pills that i took help. :(
Emotion:: lonelylonely